As the title suggests, I am returning to Cuba in 40 short days. I seriously have very mixed emotions this time around, I have been out of the country and often times I am reading Jorge's emails and just ignoring them. Super bored of the repetoire of questions he asks which he doesn't even care for the answers.
Maybe this blog will be cut short, or the vacation feels are finally over that I have nothing new to report or even have anything of interest to discuss. I still don't understand how others can fall in love and marry their Cuban lovers in a matter of months, isn't it a little scary to be diving into a lifelong commitment with someone you barely know?
I think reality outweighs romance at this part of my life, I'd much rather focus on improving on myself than trying to figure out whether someone is genuine or not. And I'm a little to selfish to take any risk that would jeopardize the future I have envisioned for myself. I guess what I'm trying to say is, for the men or women that are perusing the internet for Cuban love stories - passionate love affairs are for the most part shortlived. If your Cuban lover is good with words and good at putting in effort to maintain that spark, you're lucky and unlucky. I'm glad Jorge is not gifted in this sense because I can't imagine the emotional turmoil one must go through the keep this 'forbidden love' alive and thriving. I guess it goes to show the laws of attraction works relatively the same in all countries, it really takes two people who share common grounds and interest in one another for it to truly work.
I'm excited to go back to vacation and who knows, give me more material to update this blog afterwards? All I know is I feel the most free when I am in paradise - but no one can live in paradise forever.
